Food, Biofeedback, Yoga, and Sunday

I just cooked for the first time since the Super Bowl (I made steak fajita nachos from thepioneerwoman.com). I only made grilled curry shrimp and a cucumber salad tonight, but its nice being able to do something I love again. Its a little upsetting, as I always used to cook for Alex, but I'll get over that eventually. In other food-related news, I've been eating consistently and healthfully the past couple of days, so thats progress.

I went to Biofeedback orientation yesterday. It was really interesting. You sit at a computer, put some sensors on your fingers, and go through meditation type exercises. How successful you are at the exercises is determined by your heart rate and body alkalinity. What I found out is I'm way more stressed out than I thought I was. When I spoke with Alex yesterday he didn't seem surprised, he laughed and asked if I was only just now figuring this out about myself. I knew that I could get stressed, but I had no idea I was so nervous and anxious all the time. Well, now I know, and knowing is half the battle (I think "they" say that?)

I've done Yoga the past couple of days. I do about 20 minutes of cardio before that each time. I plan to build up the cardio but I'm still pretty tired from the lack of food/the only moderate exercise I've been getting the past couple of months. There's more yoga tonight, although I'm tempted to switch it with Zumba to get my heart rate up a bit more. The only problem is Zumba doesn't start until 9:30, which is a little late for me. We'll see how that goes.

I'm seeing Alex for the first time in two weeks on Sunday. I'm extremely nervous and so excited all at the same time. I just want to see his face. Today has been harder than the past few days, I just miss him so much more for some reason. I hate having to be patient. I just keep reminding myself how fast the past week or so has gone by. Thankfully, I have another counseling session Friday afternoon, so I'll be able to get a pep-talk before Sunday happens. (Sunday also happens to be my birthday, funny how that isn't much of a concern at this point).